J U S T a Little G I R L

L.I.F.E.

2011-07-03T12:02:00.005+08:00

LIFE
I learned it through the HARD way.
Everytime,
I thought I would die..
BUT TODAY,

I'm still SURVIVE.

Never say Never

2011-06-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

有些事情, 要靠自己努力争取.
没试过, 怎么会知道没有机会;
不试试, 机会永远不可能属于你.
只要有万分之一的机会, 就还是机会.
就看, 你有多想要这个机会.
想要它, 就勇敢往前努力去争取!
机会, 不会凭空降落到你身旁.
如果自己不去争取,
那它, 就会与你擦肩而过,
后悔也就来不及了;
因为, 机会不是常常有,
更别说是, 第二次了...
试了, 至少你知道,
你努力过, 你试过...
结果相对的, 也就没那么重要了;
因为, 你没有对不起你自己!!!

;)

Typically M3

2011-06-07T23:17:00.004+08:00

I dont talk alot to people usually..
Some call it, anti-social.
Well, let it be.
I just simply dont like to talk to people
who I dont feel like talking to,
unless it's necessary?
hmmm..
It's weird that I can talk to some like, non-stop.
I think this chemistry thing really does work uhh?
Well, so they are also people who i treasure haha!
But somehow,
some people tend to take it for granted haha! =/
When the disappointments hit to a certain limit,
they'll become a passerby in my life,
whom i dont bother to open my mouth to chat with,
nor give a damn shit about.. =)
Call me cold-blooded, or whatever,
this is just me.
Why should I be upset over people who just take me for granted?
I ain't stupid. =)

Karma

2011-06-07T18:48:00.005+08:00

Do you believe in Karma?

I do.

Peace my mind, P.E.A.C.E!!!

2011-06-06T17:52:00.006+08:00

I wonder, why am I so extreme?
Extreme for, everything...
the case this time,... :
I always believe,
that the only competitor that I have,
is myself.
Im never a competitive person.
but I dont understand why,
to those people that I like,
if they are doing great,
Im happy for them,
even if they're better than me;
while to those people that I dont like,
I just wanna see them down,
and I want to be better than them,
in everything.
Childish? Am I?
Honestly I still dont understand why!
I need to have peace of mind,
especially when now is the common test period.
I cannot afford to lose my focus.
Keep telling myself,
"Do not, DO NOT compete with those people.
Back to your normal self!"

the moment when...

2011-05-31T20:33:00.007+08:00

the moment when...

knowing you've done the right thing,

SYOK!!!!!
=DD

thanks sis!!! *muaxx*
simply love it when u said, "fuck it!" ;X
at the moment i was thinking,
"OH MAN! my sis is AWESOME!!!"

=PP

Set Free

2011-05-30T23:54:00.004+08:00

Today, set free...

Yea I miss you, I miss us;
I miss having you to talk to whenever I wanted.
But I know I have to move on,
because this is pointless...
so today, I let go of everything,
once and for all...

random mode

2011-05-29T16:08:00.002+08:00

Everyone wants a serious relationship... BUT when they get one, all of a sudden they just aren't ready. What's this? HA! Well well, even a good player could someday be a toy of a better player. The game is called Karma. =) You know what? An ex should stay an EX. They're an EXample of the wrong love and an EXplanation for why you deserve better! This is why I'd rather be alone than with someone who doesn't appreciate me. A good relationship doesn't just happen. It takes time, patience and two people who truly want to be together because you can't change people, either accept who they are or start living life without them. By the way, a relationship is a 2-way street, not a 3-way, so stop telling your friends things that go on in it alright?! sick of all these.. sighh.. i should just, study, study and study!!!

painkiller+antibiotic+chocolate, where are you? =/

蜕变

2011-05-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

回顾过去, 虽然我没有像别人般的年少疯狂, 但至少我也曾年少过.
经历的, 比别人多一些;
社交圈, 比别人少一些;
少女曾怀抱的梦想, 希望遇见自己的白马王子, 我也曾有过;
在遇见他之前, 我一直认为, 那是可笑的, 无知的...
曾被多少人环绕着, 但只有一个, 让我真心地驻足过.
遇见他, 我以为我拥有了全世界;
天真地认为, 这就是所谓的永远.
他, 成了我的梦想, 我的全部...
但却在短短一年的时间,
我的梦, 碎了..
一时之间, 我真的无法适应,
从两个人, 变成只剩一个人的生活.
我不怪任何人, 只是很淡然地接受这一切;
但心里的伤痕, 一直都没办法复合;
梦被砸碎的痛, 也只能自己一个人默默承受着,
不想也不能, 让任何人知道.
我表现的, 比想象中还要坚强, 连我都佩服起自己来了.
我说过我不哭了吧?
那是我让心里那痛, 来折磨着自己,
来哀悼, 我那逝去, 破碎的梦.
如今, 既然梦已碎;
而我, 也即将告别少年,
想想, 也是时候该醒了.
没有必要再为年少时的梦来折磨自己.
知道吗?
你砸碎了我的梦两次,
我不会让你有第三次机会.
我不会再傻傻地在那已不会再回来的时空里徘徊;
我不会再停留于原地举步不前.
这一次,
我真的把我的留恋给丢掉,
往前迈进了...

今天, 我19岁的最后一天...

Friend, or stranger?

2011-05-14T01:28:00.002+08:00

分手后,还是朋友吗?
相信这是所有人都会质疑的一个问题.
从朋友,变成恋人;
再从恋人,退回到朋友.
这朋友,是真的朋友吗?
还是,只是个假象?
毕竟,曾经相爱过;
对于彼此,已经距离朋友好远,好远了;
早已,不再是朋友了.
就因为爱过,如何还能退回到朋友的位子?
多少,还是会残留那一丝丝的依恋吧.
回忆,终究不会消失;
伤痕,终究不会磨灭.
再见,究竟是朋友;
还是,最熟悉的陌生人

emotion-l-e-s-s

2011-05-09T20:09:00.003+08:00

Ya, that's how I passed my day now.
Everyday, study, study, and study;
other than study, is still study.
I ignore any presence of any emotion;
God knows what Im trying to prove.
There was one junior (who's quite close to me recently)
asked me why I still wearing a necklace.
Ya why? I dont know and I dont wanna know why.
Everytime when it dropped without noticing it,
it will came back to me somehow.
It's hard to ignore any presence of emotion,
especially when I am such a crybaby.
Eversince then I dont cry anymore,
the feeling aint good when you're forcing yourself not to cry.
But at least, that makes me feel better;
like Im moving forward,
Im not staying at the same spot like the past.
I ain't the one who'll be hurt easily now,
not when Im not feeling a thing.
This is the new leaf that I've become.

-The clown

ain't gonna look back,
not anymore.

Life's a lesson

2011-04-25T21:01:00.004+08:00

hell yea, I'm always thinking too great of myself.
But I am in fact that great,
noone can ever judge/doubt me on that;
for I am, not the best,
but at least better than you, you, and you!
And if you think Im selfish,
sorry, that's the reality,
and that's life.
Perhaps you're still too naive at your age now.
I won't say you're childish,
maybe I've gone through more than you.
Years gone by,
for everything that had happened in the past,
all the disasters and sorrows that I've been through,
had made me ahead from alot of you,
and that makes me better than you. =)
Im always looking at people from the side,
to see how stupid people are,
and how foolish they can become.
It's like a show, and I enjoy watching it;
Pathetic they are, to give me a chance to look down on them.
But thanks to them, I have free show to watch =)
Whether or not, I am sincerely treating you,
that's very much depends on how you choose to read it.
For now,
I do not think that there's anybody worth paying my attention to,
not a lot I would say.
Im like this all the while,
love me, or just buzz off! =)
like I care?

重生

2011-04-24T19:59:00.003+08:00

结束, 并不是终点;
就像风信子一样 :
要狠狠地把枝剪了,
它才会再度活过来;
死亡, 然后重生..
Be dead, and to rise from the dead.

zZzzZzz

2011-04-24T11:45:00.002+08:00

Recently, I found myself having peaceful sleep almost every night. However, I dunno why it seems peaceful but i still feel like I was disturbed in my sleep. I still wake up in the middle of the night as usual, but i fell back sleep in a few seconds. I feel like I had a damn long dream, but I couldn't remember any of them when i woke up. I feel like Im very tired in my sleep but I feel really refreshing after I woke up... what are all these man?! =/

life goes on

2011-04-15T21:28:00.003+08:00

When one thing ends, that's the beginning of another.

-life goes on-

Disappearance

2011-04-15T18:26:00.005+08:00

This time round,
I wont say whether or not, I've over it;
cause, I wont look at it anymore.
Be it there, or gone.
I wont cry over it,
like I've promised myself,
I'll never shed a single tears after that day;
I close my eyes, and stop it.
People keep telling me to stay strong,
"yea Im fine." is what I'll tell them.
There's nothing else I can say other than this, right?
There're so many important things to be done,
I can't stop myself for this,
I shouldn't, and I can't,
let my emotion to take over me.

The End of the AfterStory

2011-04-12T23:50:00.005+08:00

It's over, the afterstory,
everything has come to an end.
Already predicted it, wasn't I?
Then why the fuck am I still crying?
Just tonight, I allowed myself to..
And after tonight,
I swear to hell i won't ever shed a single tear!
I cannot afford all these anymore isn't it?
must work hard for my studies!!!
and find a job, start saving..
for my further studies in another country in 2 years time.
I'll be strong and tough.

shaN dont need a man!!! =DD

and i can still live well.

曾经我们都以为自己可以为爱情死，
　　其实爱情死不了人，
　　它只会在最疼的地方扎上一针，
　　然后我们欲哭无泪，
　　我们辗转反侧，
　　我们久病成医，
　　我们百炼成钢。

Insomnia

2011-04-09T04:08:00.002+08:00

It's 4 in the morning, Im still awake... guess I work too much just now? 5 hours straight of housechores, very tiring arrrrrhhh~!!! I almost clean the whole house =.= sweep the floor (while the washing machine is washing my clothes), wash all the washrooms at home and mop the floor, not with the mop but with a piece of cloth =.= It's been almost 20 years of my life, I STILL DONT KNOW how to use a mop to mop the floor! =.= Think back, I started doing housechores mostly during secondary school. I learn to wash my laundry when i was 13, learn to sweep the floor when i was 15, learn to wash the washroom when i was 16... well, i still dont know how to mop the floor LoL. exhausted, ahahahaa.. Gotta start packing my luggage soon.. looking at the mess in my room, all the things that need to carry to Singapore, gotta bring 2 luggage this time sighh... wonder how am i going to carry it when i arrive in Singapore sighh..

Wrong Person

2011-04-07T23:31:00.007+08:00

Awesome song ;)

The tree that I plant, the fruit that I got

2011-03-25T16:04:00.001+08:00

got back my result, I would say, it's quite satisfying? x) Though not the top ones but, I achieved my target for the first year. Although my cgpa is still quite low, it's very hard to increase the cgpa once the result is bad but AT LEAST i improved. and and, what an UNBELIEVABLE news is that, I GOT a FREAKING "A" for my Business Law!!! RAWRRR!!! YES, It' s A!!! (my school's law exam is CLOSE book, some schools are open book for the law exam) Imagine, I got C during my common test, I didn't do well in the 2 quiz, my result is always the lowest in my law class (well, not lowest but... not too far from that =/ ) I must have done very,very,very well in my final exam that pushed my result from a "C" to "A"!!! and, Im very bad in memorizing things! *proud of myself* Good job shaN!!! =DD what's more? I met my sis's requirement in order for me to continue study in Singapore! =D It's hard but i did it! HOWEVER! my bro was saying 3.8? that's crazy... but, if i achieved, I'll get iPad2! so, that's my target this year. hehehe... *take out my sword* FOR iPad2! haha.. (too much of Lord of The Rings.. It's an awesome movie eh! I would say it's the greatest achievement in the film industry! Thumbs up for LoTR!) well, not so much of iPad2 actually, I just want to keep improving on my cgpa, that's what im aiming..! ;)

(FOR iPad2!!! *whoops~* )

The tree, grape, and fox

2011-03-16T10:19:00.002+08:00

have you read before the story of grape and fox during your childhood? the fox wanted to eat the grape but he couldn't reach it so he thinks that the grape is sour. Somebody told me another version. is not that the fox couldn't reach the grape but he is waiting patiently under the tree for the bond between the tree and the grape to end and then the grape will drop itself. However, I'm thinking, even when the grape dropped from the tree, can it still be eaten? it's most probably already rotten. It's a very good fertilizer for the tree I supposed? anyway, no matter how much you change it, the story will still be the same, the fox cant reach the grape so he thinks that it's sour.

just gotta force it...

2011-03-09T22:05:00.007+08:00

when you're too used to having somebody by your side,
it's just so hard to get used to when there's nobody by your side.

Everynight,
I sleep in tears;
everynight,
I woke up from nightmare;
and everynight,
I hug AarisHoney tighter to me before I could fall back to sleep again,
afraid that he's not beside me when i woke up...

it takes two hands to clap...

2011-03-08T22:57:00.002+08:00

sometimes,
not that the feelings' not there anymore;
just,
we became too lazy to sustain it in that stage.
we became too lazy to do things to keep up with the feelings...
when you put less effort in,
that's when feelings started to change.
one is that you're too lazy to do anything;
and another one...
is not that you didnt put enough effort,
you put in effort,
but when you didnt get response,
you became discourage,
and that's when you'll turn lazy,
to even try to sustain it...

it takes two hands to clap...

numb

2011-03-08T09:43:00.001+08:00

keep telling myself,
see nothing, hear nothing...
I cant see
I cant hear
I cant think

trying..
to pretend like there's nothing...

A fullstop for my first year =)

2011-03-05T07:39:00.002+08:00

ahhh... finally... my finals are over. i drained myself alot in this finals, due to my sucky results last sem. i gotta push up my results. =/ when i finished the last paper, the feeling's just like, 2 years back when i finished the last paper in spm... so happy! and my heart brighten up alot. God knows how suffering and torturing it is to chiong like this. everything seems great, i managed to answer every single questions except for some. i guess the 2 weeks of torture is, worth it? Waiting for the result to release.. I dunno what the outcome will be but well, I've tried my best, that's what matter most, isn't it? though if the outcome is negative i'll be really disappointed and i dont like disappointment. I can only tell myself, "you've done a great job because you've tried your best."

banking and finance = love money?!

2011-02-27T21:18:00.001+08:00

Back in Sunway University College, i used to see a lot, trust me, A LOT of Nigerian (a general name that i call for the black even if they are not from Nigeria, not so insulting at least!), almost every corner of campus i go, i'll definitely see them... But not in Singapore. So, when i was inside mrt just now, i saw a nigerian board my carriage. this thought slip through my mind immediately, "wow... first nigerian i saw in singapore! :O " few stations later, he approached me (i wonder why i always attract the black, this is not the first time! =.=" ) I was on my ipod while he was talking. at first i thought he wasnt talking to me as he looked at the little girl beside me then looked at me, till then i noticed he was actually talking to me =S

Him: you study economics?
me : ya.. err no..
Him : o_O (give me a blur face)
Me : just a foundation
Him : ooo... SIM?
Me : (the uni the i dont really like -.- ) no, ngee ann.
Him : so what course are you studying?
Me : banking and finance.
Him : OH! so you love money!
Me : ......... ha..ha... =.="

why study banking and finance = love money??? T_T

(but, everyone love money! who doesn't? money is useful in our daily life.. without money, how are you going to survive in current society? we're not living in barter system nor self-sufficiency (you make your own product and use for yourself) like the olden people anymore! wake up hello!!! =X )

I Miss You

2011-02-26T20:08:00.005+08:00

I miss....

you,
you, you,
you, you, you,
you, you, you, you,
you, you, you, you, you,

AND YOU!!!!!

I'm extremely happy that I'm going back soon..
Having 6 weeks break before another hectic semester begins!
I'm gonna just relax and slack and enjoy myself all the way!!!
Ask me out!!! ;)

Mist

2011-02-26T20:02:00.003+08:00

You've changed?
I've changed?
or,
We've all changed?

Like I've said always,
We can never predict what's going to happen in the future.
=/

angels... dont breathe...

2011-02-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

angels don't breathe...

thoughts after education fair...

2011-01-21T13:59:00.004+08:00

just went to education fair yesterday which held in convention center in my school. The CGPA required to go into the university are so high. It seems like impossible for me. the fees are so freaking expensive, how am i going to afford that? If i dont get my way into NUS, i think, I have no future anymore... sifu Yang once told me, never regret of your choice... but, am i making the right choice? i know that even when the choice at the beginning is wrong but it could be right at the end, but im not that sure anymore... I have 2 sets of distinct result now, i dont want to stop in just a diploma!!! One of my friends who got excellent result told me, "dont need to memorise, just understand enough." oh yea... i understand everything but i dont know why my result still cannot be as good as his. "maybe is your english.." oh yea i know right... =/ well well.. even if, i do make it to NUS, how am i going to pay such an expensive tuition fees even after subsidised by singapore's government?! and, why in malalysia it seems like so easy to enter any universities even with a lousy result and but not singapore?! ARGGHHH!!!
I better not to think so much and concentrate in improving my result for now..... i would rather not go to the education fair...so demotivating.... -.-

choose friends wisely ;D

2011-01-15T16:47:00.005+08:00

Friends really do have huge influence huhh?
not to say mix with only those that have good influence,
befriend with everyone,
but choose wisely,
put them in different category.
2 different group of friends throughout the 2 semester.
and i can see the difference in my result.
somehow, somewhat,
I think,
people of own nation are always better and more comfortable to be with,
especially when you're in foreign country, all alone.
they can understand you better,
due to the same experience i supposed?
(but ofcourse, there are some local are nice people too..)

God, please stay with me all the time,
show me the way,
and protect me from any harms.
I pray.

Uncertainties

2011-01-13T22:14:00.003+08:00

people used to say, have confidence and believe in yourself.
is that so?
oh yea, it's true to a certain extend.
But, sometimes...
your confidence, your belief, might backfire you.
No matter how much confidence you have, how much you believe in yourself,
there will still be uncertainty;
it might turn out to be different from what you've expected,
so suddenly... before you can prepare yourself or digest it,
it already happened.
Things change, so do people..
Everything around us change
every minutes every seconds,
be it concrete or abstract.
The world around us is unpredictable.
How long can I hold on to this? I wonder...
Though I've expected it,
but I'm afraid,
can I still keep up with this in the future?
I'm afraid of all the uncertainties,
especially towards the people, and the things that i care about.
No matter how much confidence I have in me,
the uncertainty can never be illuminated......

deep in my heart,
there's this voice keep telling me,
"take things in your strides,
bounce back from difficulties;
my babe's not a quitter."

SMILE

2010-12-01T12:09:00.002+08:00

Put on a smile,
no matter what happened,
how much it disgusted you...
even it's a fake smile.
just S.M.I.L.E~

oh crap im so not good in this -.-

family education is really important!!! O:

2010-11-23T22:32:00.004+08:00

everyone comes from a different family background, that basically forms our behavior in the future. Usually, we learn things from what we see. well, we learn better and faster in that way, that's what i think at least... having to say that I,myself come from a very caring and lovely family, our bond is strong, so it's like our nature instinct to care for somebody or take care of them, for us, it's something so natural, we've been practicing it almost the whole of our life. but, what seems natural in our family doesn't mean that others will be the same. yea maybe it's true that it lies in the all off us, but, it'll still needs to be develop, isn't it? just like talent, it's lies in you, but if you never develop it, it'll just be like, a trash. there's noone, that dont deserve a chance, to learn. i dont mind spending my time, and giving him chance to learn, things that he hardly have experience from the past, or maybe i should say, im willing to spend my time to develop the hidden nature of him. am i giving too much credit? maybe yea but.. im willing to. ;) it needs two hands to clap, at least, he's willing to learn and change right? =) that's all i ask for...

i believe in you baby
one 'N' only

梦

2010-11-07T16:38:00.003+08:00

Dream
as if you'll live
forever...

so i'll continue to dream,
to believe in.

寒

2010-11-07T12:57:00.008+08:00

泡泡就只是昙花一现,"pop".. 回到最初的形态, 融入水里. 不想要, 一直吹着泡泡, 让他形成泡泡, 又融入水里再形成泡泡. 要多久, 多长的时间, 泡泡才会永远维持在泡泡的形态, 而又不会再变回水呢？

我，会等
等待有一天
泡泡不再变成水的
那一天

Rent for Apartment

2010-10-21T02:34:00.002+08:00

Accidentally found this from a forum.. so decided to share it...

Enjoy!!! =]

A businessman met a beautiful girl and agreed to spend the night with her for $500. They did their thing, and, before he left, he told her that he did not have any cash with him, but he would have his secretary write a check and mail it to her, calling the payment 'RENT FOR APARTMENT.'

On the way to the office, he regretted what he had done, realizing that the whole
event had not been worth the price. So he had his secretary send a check for $250 and enclose the following typed note:

'Dear Madam:
Enclosed find a check for $250 for rent of your
apartment . I am not sending the amount agreed upon,
because when I rented the place, I was under the
impression that:
#1 - it had never been occupied;
#2 - there was plenty of heat; and
#3 - it was small enough to make me feel cozy and at home.

However, I found out that:
#1 - it had been previously occupied,
#2 - there wasn't any heat, and
#3 - it was entirely too large.'

Upon receipt of the note, the girl immediately
returned the check for $250 with the following note:

'Dear Sir:
#1 - I cannot understand how you could expect a
beautiful apartment to remain unoccupied indefinitely.
#2 - As for the heat, there is plenty of it, if you
know how to turn it on.
#3 - Regarding the space, the apartment is indeed of
regular size, but if you don't have enough furniture
to fill it, please do not blame the management.
So, Please send the rent in full or we will be forced
to contact your present landlady...

lucky, and the unlucky ones

2010-09-28T21:17:00.003+08:00

after so long didnt follow my sifu's blog,
just read his latest post and saw this,
"Someday, you'll find the one
who will watch every sunrise with you
until the sunset of your life."
kinda meaningful eh?
i do agree with this,
partly.
but someday?
when's the someday?
some people is not so lucky...
their someday might just be....
forever...
most of us,
spend almost our lifetime,
looking for that someone...
they've been hurt again and again..
and eventually,
they might just give up on it...
so it's abit of contradict when i saw this phase.
but oh well,
we shall not give up on hope,
isnt it?
when we have hope,
we'll keep on trying...
until we got it.
so i think,
i should change my point of view
looking at the people around me.
just feel that they're pathetic...
but,
they're just people who
are desperate and not giving up hope.
on the other hand,
guess i shall respect them?
LOL

and i shall say,
i'm lucky to have found the one.
x3

My choice

2010-08-23T21:40:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when we look back,
only we'll notice,
we've made such a big mistake,
or only we'll notice,
we've missed or lost,
something, or someone in life,
due to the lack of experience.
maybe, it is a better one.
maybe, it is a better choice.
maybe, it is a mistake that we made.
but we shouldn't be affected by it.
I'm not regret, of my decision,
even if people think I was wrong.
I've made my own choice,
I,
Live, for today;
Live, for the future.
nobody is perfect.
in fact,
we're all imperfect.
there's always a comparison,
there's always a better one.
but it doesn't matter,
for I've made a choice,
even if,
it is imperfect,
even if,
there's better one,
but,
I'm satisfied,
and I'm glad,
with what i have now.
This is,
my choice...

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
We're all, Imperfect...

Never Quit

2010-08-22T14:51:00.002+08:00

Even it's the slightest hope,
but never, never, never quit,
for it's not the end yet.
We never know,
what the outcome would be,
until we reached the ending point...

Bear in mind..
and i shall start practising this..
not to give up hope easily...
i shouldn't be a quitter anymore...
not anymore...

米修米修

2010-08-06T08:28:00.002+08:00

任何决定要的
就不要放手
包括在乎的人

其实
不管到哪里都可以
因为只要有你的那一站
就是幸福的

下一站，幸福

x3x3

2010-08-02T10:29:00.002+08:00

it grows stronger,
as time passed...

One 'N' Only

The art of silence

2010-07-27T18:32:00.002+08:00

it can be the best shield,
also,
it can be the best weapon.
the art of silence,
something that i need to learn...

Just so you know

2010-07-27T01:11:00.000+08:00

I've seen your change
I appreciate it
and Im pleased to see the changes
things that I dont say
dont mean that I dont know
Im not a senseless person
I have eyes, to see
I have heart, to feel
I trust you
with all that I have
you cant doubt me on that

I just want to love you
and for you to love me

**********************
What's done is done
I cant rewind it
Saying sorry is insufficient
I will remind myself to be
more thoughtful and considerate next time
action is always better than words
more practical isnt it? ;)

unacceptable fact

2010-07-15T17:24:00.004+08:00

thoughts been running through my mind for days..
i'm totally lost..
i couldn't accept it,
i never expect this to happened.
nobody ever predicted this..
it came as a shock..
all the misunderstands..
i dont want to explain myself.
just let it be...
everyone is shocked, tired..
and trying to accept the fact...
yet still have to put on a smiley face act like nothing has gone wrong.
we gotta be strong..
to support each other at this point of time..
we'll get through this.....

Look at it positively,
and hope that everything will be fine...

knock you down =D

2010-07-12T21:20:00.002+08:00

Life will knock us down
BUT
we can choose whether or not
TO GET BACK UP

-karate kid`2010

feel with heart

2010-07-10T23:38:00.001+08:00

Thanks for everything that you've done for me.
I've seen it and I appreciate it.
Truly....
all and all...
x3

though at the end still didn't make it for Flyer..
but still I enjoyed the day a lot.
I enjoyed every minutes every seconds,
as long there's you,
by my side...

the 100th days...
there'll still be 1000th days, 10000th days 100000thdays to come!!! x3

Something that is feel with
H.E.A.R.T

Take a Step Forward

2010-07-05T15:43:00.004+08:00

I told myself,
I should stop letting the past haunt me.
I must take a step forward,
and I'll see,
the sun,
shine upon me.....

everything will be different
from the past.
-faith & trust-

A Moment to T.H.I.N.K

2010-07-05T15:33:00.003+08:00

sitting in my favorite Starbucks near Esplanade.
looking outside of the glass,
not many people today.
ah.. peace and silence...
a perfect moment to think,
to think of everything since i came to Singapore.
A moment to 'review' on my life so far.
things are getting better now.
I'm glad.
16 months of slacking,
it's not a short time.
I can hardly put my concentration on my studies at the beginning.
I broke down for few times...
I almost give up,
but to think of how hard I fight for myself to come here to study,
the effort that I've put in,
the people behind me,
that always give me loves and supports and motivations,
I don't allowed myself to be defeated.
Until the week before my common test,
I've finally found the spirit that been lost due to the 16 months of slacking,
Yes, the feelings of study for my SPM last time is back.
Every seconds here in Singapore is burning every penny..
I'm glad that i manage to return myself to the study position slowly now.
the pressure is still there,
But, i shall admit that,
I'm having fun studying here.
Hopefully this will helps me in getting a good result.
After all, the study environment does affect the result.
isn't it?
Looking at myself,
the 'me' from last time till now,
mom always said that I'm unreasonable and willful.
somehow I think it's because I'm the youngest child in the family.
Everyone is taking care of me, pampering me.
But, am I taking all these for granted?
I thought that I've changed.
I really thought that I've changed.
But i guess not? =/
or maybe,
yes I've changed,
but not enough...
Having in a place where those people who is dear to me are not beside me,
where I'm all by myself,
I need to change,
I need to improve...
not that I'm a puppet,
to let people take control of me,
but i want to be a better human being,
to be fitted into this society.
I don't understand why,
everything i know,
everything i understand,
i just cant help but to think of it in the negative way,
though i keep forcing myself to think positive,
somehow i will still go into the negative way.
My thinking is always positive.. always..
just why i will still think in negative way sometimes?
My thinking is always fighting,
they're always contradict.
Or, I think too much?
but we need to always think of both good and bad..
okok... that's when my mind will be fighting..
again, thinking too much =.="
and sometimes,
I know that I shouldn't,
yet I'll end up doing it still.
I guess it's because,
I'm tired of trying to be someone who is very thoughtful and understanding.
just wanna be willful sometimes..
though i know this may causes problem.
[I'm a weirdo.. =.= ]
but well,
i guess, I can't do that.
because this will eventually formed an image of me,
that is,
someone who is very unreasonable,
someone who is not thoughtful,
someone who is willful
someone who is not understanding.
though the truth is, I'm not.
[maybe sometimes yes... without me realising it =/]
These are the ordinary girl's characteristics, which
I don't want to have.
[but sometimes be that way is fun too.. well just for fun...I'm really a weirdo =.=]
All these, are things that I need to change.
no. I have to change.
It's a must.
else it'll lead me to nowhere.

What had past, it's past...
what matter most is the present and the future.

Bridge

2010-07-04T16:02:00.002+08:00

build the bridge,
with our hands.

we can do it.

Life is as beautiful as you make it

2010-07-03T10:37:00.004+08:00

Always live your life to its fullest.
Enjoy laughter, touch a star.
Smile for today while you shine through your tomorrow.
Venture out, conquer the unconquerable.
Look where others dare not look.
Open your heart.
Make new friends.
Speak your mind.
Challenge tomorrows and treasure yesterdays,
Remember that happiness is what we have within us.
Capture all that you can in this beautiful creation called life.

-Think Positive-

always see things at different angles,
and that's what makes life different from others.

Bubbles of Dreams

2010-06-28T19:04:00.006+08:00

this time,
I'll not let the beautiful bubbles,
'POP' again...

it's human nature to be protective and
not wanting to lose things
that they treasure...

my deepest apologies...

2010-06-18T23:38:00.005+08:00

if my attitude is different from yesterday,
there's a reason behind it.
believe me,
i never wanted to do this,
but the situation doesn't allowed.
in this case,
im sorry...

i wont seek for understanding
nor forgiveness.

wrong thing right

2010-06-18T04:59:00.004+08:00

and i hope
that
i've made
the wrong thing right
on time before
it's too late

just my way, my route, my path
-my life. my own life-

suicidal

2010-06-18T02:26:00.004+08:00

whatever that is happened,
never, ever... think of suicide.
suicide is only a permanent solution to a temporary problem
why so drastic?
anything and everything can be worked out.
only when you believe,
you can overcome everything
if you choose to suicide
what would be left for your family?
if you died today,
you're merely running away.
the problem will still exist.
unless you decide,
to change your mind and
do something bout it.
for what give up your life?
your life worth so much more.
always look on the bright side of life,
no matter how terrible the situation is,
there will always be families,
worse off than yours...

Live for yourself
find your own sky,
spread your wings and
fly towards your dreams.

decision-maker

2010-06-13T11:27:00.003+08:00

chances will not be there for you all the time.
appreciate it..
and never regret of your decision.
people can only give you advice and opinion.
only YOU, YOURSELF can make the final decision.

only YOU, YOURSELF,
is your own decision-maker.
just believe in yourself.

.:: always believe ::.

Home with Love

2010-06-12T06:40:00.002+08:00

im home. vee~
my house is the best after all.
the feeling of HOME!
maybe because it is too comfortable;
my room especially.
a place where i stay in for like.. 11 years already...
and bathroom!!!
can play with water!!! =DD
maybe hafta wait until i have my own house in Singapore,
which still long way to go.
till then i will never have the feeling of HOME there =/

Home-Sweet-Home

花田物语

2010-06-08T21:25:00.004+08:00

the white lily...
is always me and my sister's favorite...

for as long the flower is white.
we love it...
especially white lily....

when i was young,
i always dream to have an Arum Lily Garden..
but well,
it's just little girl's dream.
[so unrealistic. ~.~///]

Arum Lily,
you're just so beautiful.....

to my sleeping partnerS =)

2010-06-08T19:56:00.004+08:00

im going back, soon.
VERY soon indead.
Thursday!!!
my room, miss it alot...
Para soft toys aku,
im coming back...
it's been 2 months i didnt see all of you,
without your companion at night
i feel so lonely and so not used to it.
afterall we've been sleeping together for yearS!
how i wish that the all of you are with me every night...
i miss the days when we used to sleep together...
i know all of you must have been missing me
as much as i miss you right?
no worries
im coming back to you soon!!!

x3

MixStack

2010-06-08T19:49:00.002+08:00

ignore the inisignificant ones =X

2010-06-08T18:14:00.001+08:00

what kind of luck i have recently??? (-.-")

firstly in facebook, i got this message from an african.
"hi baby how are you ? you so pretty can you be my girlfriend ? i like you "

answer in my heart: sorry, im racist. i dont like black.

secondly, when i had lunch in Ministry of Food (MOF) in Sembawang shopping Centre just now, there's this note left on my table when a waiter was cleaning my table for me after my meal while i was studying. i dont know if it was the waiter or maybe his colleague.

"can be friend with you???" and there's a name and mobile number on the paper.

answer in my heart: sorry, i dont friend with stranger.

kinda silly i thought...
maybe some girls will love it and enjoy it
but i just feel uncomfortable with it
what i can do is just...
-ignore-

no vulgar ploX..

2010-06-08T15:28:00.006+08:00

sighh... wondering why, youngster nowadays, love to speak vulgar? what fuck nb cb lj bitch slut mofo bloody nimrod blah blah blahh.. ~.~/// i also dunno what else they have. well, not only guys, girls too. some can even scold a sentence with 90% of vulgar in it.. my eyes normally will go O_O salute sia.. can link so many vulgar together.. if there's an exam for vulgar language, im pretty sure all these youngster can score A1 or, 100% LOL.. BUT, it isn't a nice word. it does not make u look cool when you're scolding vulgar. why people just cant get that idea into their mind? some even makes it like, the ending of their sentence... i dunno how but is like for every sentence, definitely will ends with a, wtf. or, the beginning of the sentence. like, Fuck, blah blah blahh... ~.~/// it doesn't sound good at all. somehow i feel it's very embarrassing and most importantly, it embarrassed our parents. like they didn't teach us well. besides, man with eyes and brain will not fall for girl that full with vulgar; girl with eyes and brain will not fall for a man who use vulgar all the time. (low standard =X ) not that im very high class or what, but just i think it will spoil my image. what will people think of me and my parents? hey, my parents did teach me well alright? im well-educated (and im proud and grateful for this). so ofcourse i dont want to embarrass them!!!
but well, i myself used to be this way too. somehow i managed to change and stopped myself from using vulgar. why? cause i dont wanna become the people that i hate the most. and because i dont like people using vulgar, i dont like hearing nor seeing vulgar, so, i wont use it too... this is my principle. if i dont like people to do it, i wont do it. this is me x)

so, no vulgar ploX! ;P

your ignorance

2010-06-07T19:14:00.004+08:00

If

you cant appreciate my love,

then

you don't deserve it.

someone else would.

sometimes i really wonder,
is this the respond that should have,
for we've already know each other for years.
do i even stand a place in your heart?
im sick of getting such respond,
over and over again...
you think it's funny?
nope, not at all.
your ignorance is hurtful.
guess i should stop "expecting"
the respond that you "should" have
from today onwards.

for i know that
im not a strong person
that can take all these
especially when it's someone who is dearie to me....

trying to pretend like i dont care

Happiness

2010-06-06T12:46:00.002+08:00

一個人的快樂，
不是因為他擁有的多，
而是因為他計較的少...

forgiveness

2010-06-04T07:14:00.003+08:00

sometimes,
we just need to learn,
to befriend with everyone;
even people of the different path,
as we can see different things from people around,
and learn from their experiences.
and from there,
we will become a better man.

life, is too short that we shall enjoy it to the fullest.
why bother to remember all the unhappiness?
if one can let go of it and smile to me,
i will,
i definitely will,
put on a smiley face,
and welcome you to join me,
once again,
sincerely.
regardless of what you did to me previously.

cheers~ =)

再见依然是朋友

Hangman, begins...

2010-06-02T00:01:00.001+08:00

come let's play Hangman!
if the man tio hang den i'll hang you instead! =DD

Guess _ _

or of oh ok on

-rules are meant to be broken-

O K

the little girl's dream

2010-05-30T08:50:00.004+08:00

a dream that she can never reach,
no matter how hard she tried,
after all,
dream is just a dream...
for her to see through it,
for her to grow up,
for her to learn,
for her to realise that,
luck does not with us all the time,
there're always ups and downs
in life...

and does she learn to give up in times?
no, she will never know how to do that.
even though everytime she falls,
it hurts...

傻瓜的幸福

2010-05-27T02:27:00.005+08:00

(2:05 AM) peishaN <珮瑄> :
tht someone must be lucky to not knw tht someone is the lucky one.

(2:06 AM) [sitt] wad's wor:
huh?
y?

(2:07 AM) peishaN <珮瑄> :
不知道事实永远都是幸福的..
nvr heard of it? o.o

(2:07 AM) [sitt] wad's wor:
nope

(2:07 AM) peishaN <珮瑄> :
den nw u heard of it le lor

(2:08 AM) [sitt] wad's wor:
hmm

(2:08 AM) peishaN <珮瑄> :
这就是为什么傻瓜永远都那么开心

(2:08 AM) [sitt] wad's wor:
nt true lo

(2:08 AM) peishaN <珮瑄> :
tht's what i believe in after..

(2:09 AM) peishaN <珮瑄> :
lol
y u say it's nt true lea?

(2:11 AM) [sitt] wad's wor:
dumb ppl dunno wad is happy and sad
so ur sentence doesnt make sense lo

(2:11 AM) [sitt] wad's wor:
not logical

(2:11 AM) peishaN <珮瑄> :
but they are always smiling

(2:12 AM) [sitt] wad's wor:
hmm

(2:12 AM) [sitt] wad's wor:
smiling doesnt mean they are happy
they just dunno wad is sad

(2:14 AM) peishaN <珮瑄> :
那也是一种幸福啊！知道了事实，就会感受到事实背后的残忍与痛心
有时我还宁愿自己是个傻瓜
lol

(2:16 AM) [sitt] wad's wor:
...
if u put it this way

(2:17 AM) peishaN <珮瑄> :
anyway u do have ur points la
hahahhaa

幸福看是垂手可得
但却又遥与不可及
-傻瓜的信仰-

Happy Birthday to US!!! =D

2010-05-18T16:05:00.001+08:00

yea, papa mama came down to Singapore to sign Tuition Grant for me. had lunch in my school's Makan Place. dad said, "eat only need to walk so far." LoL~ well later on brought them to Iluma in bugis to eat Marble Slab Creamery ice-cream! unfortunately dont have my flavourite flavour d =( after that went to Orchard. wanted to bring them go steakhouse, as a celebration for our birthday in advanced. but well, dad wanted to eat in Ding Tai Fung. so we went there to have dinner. and i bought this cake, heeeee... celebration ma, so must have cake! i like this cake, why? cause it's dark chocolate; 2nd, it's not too sweet. x) after that we went back BUT while on the way to Orchard MRT, mom wanted to go into the LV shop in Ion, to ask bout her bag. i was thinking, "hopefully not another LV bag come out by the end of the day. =.=" she went in to ask if there's any method to clear the scratches. guess what's the staff said? "real leather sure have scratches. you're actually paying for all these scratches." LoL! my head straight full of lines. =S well well, luckily mom didnt spot any of the bag else zZzzZzz BUT, we came out from the shop with, not bag, but wallet. dad bought a wallet =.=" but i think nevermind lar since he wanted to buy a wallet very long le and this wallet unlike those typical LV design. i pun sukak! =D but, seriously, i salute guys buy things. he was browsing through all the wallets, then when he saw this, he made the decision of buying the wallet, within a minute.... or was it 30 seconds? (-.-") my eyes turned O_O LoL~ well, i also bought another sneakers from Skechers. i think it's because they see le my school they think i need a shoes lol~ hahahhahaaaaa... =X

Our cakes!!! =D

Happy birthday to the three of us!!!!! =DD
-in advanced lol-

烟火

2010-05-12T10:21:00.002+08:00

烟火选择在自己最灿烂时消失,
存在性不久,
已足够...
让人感动,怀念一辈子...

有人选择天长地久,
有人选择,
曾经拥有.....

*credit to Wonnet korkor...

ice-cream x3

2010-05-12T09:46:00.004+08:00

Sadly to say, Singapore dont have Baskin Robbins. =(
well... at least, they have Andersen's of Denmark, which their Mint Chocolate Chip ice-cream is also a good ones!!! unfortunately Malaysia doesn't have. i saw this before in Sunway Pyramid one level up from Pyramid's ice ring. but well, later on they replace it with NewZealand Natural. so it's been long since i last eat Mint Chocolate Chip from Andersen's. so for now though dont have Baskin Robbins here, AT LEAST i have Andersen's whenever im craving for Mint Chocolate Chip ice-cream xD

the next one will be, ice-cream from Marble Slab Creamery. i just tried once in iluma,Bugis. the one i tried was... Double Dark Chocolate. their ice-cream is just plain ice-cream, they dont come with any mixing.. you'll have to order the toppings yourself. this is awesome! after you select your toppings, they will mix them into the ice-cream... in front of you!!! and it tastes just..... heavenly yummy! =P you'll for sure be asking for more after you finished it! anwwwwww... so yummy...!!! it's even nicer than Haagen Dazs!!! for most of the time, ice-cream i will go for mint chocolate chip only. but Marble Slab Creamery, wao... im looking forward to try all of their ice-cream flavors... unfortunately they only have one branch in Singapore which is inside iluma at bugis. =/ they do have ice-cream cakes too... wonder if it's nice? i suppose it's nice... the ice-cream is already so..... anwwww~~~~ x3 guess i shall go Bugis and grab another one by this weekends le... can do my study there too... x)

Precious Thots

2010-05-12T09:45:00.001+08:00

many people were wondering what is the bear that i was talking about in my facebook status. this is the one. i saw it in Precious Thots. well, i saw another bigger ones in Malaysia's Precious thots.. it's international brand duhh.. but i like this size. just nice to hug... and it's so soft... annwww~~~~ x3
but well, it's nice to hug, price is very nice as well... hahahhaaaa...
so, forget bout it,...

unpredictable

2010-04-25T01:58:00.005+08:00

when you think that
it is impossible to happen,
it happens.

things happen when u least predict it.
-unpredictable life-

officially a NP student =)

2010-04-19T09:37:00.002+08:00

yoz!!! today, the first day of my school. after four months of rotting. finally, im back to school!!! well, or i should say, finally i found an aim for me to work on. i used to fool around in my foundation year last year so.. this time round, i shall start to be serious. though seniors all told me, "aiya 1st year just enjoy your life, very easy de." yet, i think, i cant. i must work hard to get into Singapore local university. i will not satisfied with just a Diploma. i must at least have a Degree... my siblings all are first-class honours in their degree. my academic achievement is always the best among all of them. so this time round, in my tertiary education, i must be the best too. yea maybe im competitive but.. im the youngest in the family so things that i get is always better than them, or i should say, the best among them. thus, if i didnt do well then, will be too, sorry for them. it's like, their "investment" on me all in vain. as what my siblings said to me last year(due to my slacking in my foundation year.) "the money throw into the river still gt "pong".. can hear the sound. u lea? no sound at all." (-.-")

how's my life in singapore for the passed one week?
*public transport drive me crazy
-im alright with mrt but, sometimes i used a longer way to reach my destination. and ofcourse, i spent alot on my transportation. travel around the east, west and south of Singapore to settle things regrading to my study. student pass, medical checkup, orientation, collection of IPA letter blahhh...
-while for the bus, i went on the wrong bus. (-.-") then from there travel another big round to reach my destination. =.="

*HDB, i tak sukak -.-"
-especially when come to hanging clothes part. very irritating. so i decided to find a landed property to rent. but of course, must get the cheaper ones. in Singapore, landed property rental expensive till you rather go heaven. =/

*time spent on finding accommodation
-ya... currently staying in mom's friend's son's house. though they didnt say anything but somehow i feel awkward as, no matter how it's people's place and for now i dont hafta pay rental. so, is better if i can get to find an accommodation as soon as possible.

overall, my whole week is just spending on traveling in the public transport. but well, at least i dont hafta drive~ x)

and now, im officially a NP student (without the student pass hahaha.. will get it soon)!!!! WOOOOOOOOO~!!!!!!!!!!!!
-though the first day of class, after i went into the classroom, then the lecturer said, "today no class." i came all the way here... like from east of singapore to west of Singapore! (-.-")

F.R.I.E.N.D.s

2010-04-15T15:06:00.002+08:00

Friends are angels
who lift us to
our feet when
our wings have trouble
remembering how to fly.

There is no beginning or end..
Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift.

only for you. =)

2010-04-10T08:14:00.003+08:00

There’s one thing that is a must for me to do before I leave, which is meet up with my babe. Teeeheee~ was planning to go KLCC, since both of us had enough of Sunway Pyramid. Well, it didn’t work out as what we’ve planned as, I have got no transport. (-.-”) so, ended up we went to ss15’s McDonald? Back to where everything started. =) still remember there’s once we escape from the class and came here to have just a burger~ LOL~

babe,

our date will never be sucks. In fact, I enjoyed all our dates as long there’re the two of us. And im sorry too, for the sudden leaving. Or else I would have something better for you. You, evil girl, after dropping u in ss15, I was caught in a jam so I opened the plastic bag that you got me and found the card. You got me crying all the way from Subang until Bandar Baru Klang after reading the card. =.=” Don’t worry babe, im not a lesbian too =P noone can ever replace you in my heart. The only one thing that I will never regret of joining the pre-U is knowing you. If were to turn back the time, I will still do the same thing. well, you're better to get an Facebook account soon!!! D: this was in my Facebook status yesterday, "the most heartbreaking part is knowing that im leaving soon and hafta be seperated from you. i'll be missing you babe." too bad lar u dont have a Facebook account yet, there's this icon with 2 clouds cuddling, yea true, yesterday was in the car so yea.. =S dont be sad k? 6 months will pass real fast! i'll be waiting for your arrival on December. that's the promise. *hugz*

with love.

JasLeNe.shaN
-J.S-

packing packing packing~

2010-04-10T07:59:00.002+08:00

im leaving soon so yea, can imagine how busy i am. packing my stuffs... hell lotsa things -__-" i wanted a big luggage and a medium luggage, ended up my mom gave me a medium luggage and a small luggage .__. so im bringing these two and also the laptop bag that sis just gave me. she bought last few months and only use for few times. she gave me is because think of that i need to carry so many things so with the laptop bad i do not need to carry my laptop. such a thoughtful and considerate sis i have x) i actually removed things from my luggage few times. i need to think of a way to make all my things go into the luggage lol. while i was sleeping, i got an idea on how to make all things get their "ass" into the luggage, so yea, quickly woke up and start repacking .__.

well, though that im busy, but at least, i met everyone that i want to meet before i leave. so, busy abit never mind lar~~~ hahahahahaaaaaaa..

lappy upgraded!

2010-04-07T23:54:00.002+08:00

yes!!! my lappy finally upgraded!!! now is soooooo much faster compare to the old ones. but, i gotta get used to windows 7... stilll not used to it sia =S

well, just back from Biz Cafe. went out with jihyong and jishen. winnie didnt make it as friday night is the time for my secondary school's gang, so she joining there lol. while joejian coulnt make it too but she sew something for me, as a farewell gift... hmm... will upload it in the future. x)

and and!!! newly discovered!!!!! jishen and jihyong is actually, MY COUSINS!!!! omg omg omg!!! like after 19 years only we know sia.... =S thanks to my bro's wedding dinner lol!!! HI COUSINS!!! LoL~!!!

and next....im sad at the same time. why? i thursday going to Genting so left for Friday. i Friday, morning-evening i reserve for my sweetie, thought that we can go KLCC chill out or something de. then mom said cannot as my dad needs to use the car in the evening and is for me de -- he's going to change SGD for me ma.... then now no transport le. im really really sad.... haizz... babe, i must meet u no matter what. else i will be missing you de =( i'll think of a way ok??? T_T

tiring day... .__.

2010-04-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

just back from Singapore. tired... =S
today is not a good day for me. why? lotsa thigns happened. =/
went there by coach and back by flight. go
i told myself,
i will never go by coach anymore. i would rather go back less than coming by coach again. .__.
it's 3+ a.m. when we're in the border, the bus driver ask, "where you wanna get down? woodlans or.. (he said dunno what jo dunno what lun.. -,-) " ofcourse i knw woodlands is Singapore lar. i just dunno the other place that he mentioned. okay that's fine. the bus left us in the border line. so me and my mom gotta wait for the public bus. im like... zZzzzZz. i dunno if it's memang will leave the passenger there or what lar. then ar, the next thing i saw is, A MAN IS NAKED!!! no undies no anything!!! i was waiting for my mom outside of the washroom. and i saw this guy coming out from the male washroom, NAKED. im the only person there, i saw.. umm, someone naked and i saw some... shadow? errr.. a black part below lar... so i quickly turn away le. -.- i didnt see his "brother" lar, the moment i saw the black part sure knows what's near it already de ma. (-.-") my head straight 3 lines lor... NAKED eh.. =.=" k fine, i never seen anyone so daring naked in front of public. =.=" then, when waiting for the bus, oh man... crap! -.- the people start pushing each other when see the bus arriving. some even cut queue, the bus, really lor, me and my mom, we SQUEEZE in de lor. =/

and when reached Kranji mrt, we gotta wait again. =/ no choice, too early le. =.=" after i bought the EZlink card, we went to Chinatown 1st. mom say wanna go there ma. but still, TOO EARLY, no food stall open at this time. -.- not even McDonald sia. i thought Mcdonald suppose is 24 hours de lor =.=" so, we just sit at the bus station, pity sia -.- and i was finding a bus to Bugis. (i only know MRT, im not familiar with bus =S) i thought bugis bus should go to the opposite station so yea, we walked there and i found out that, it's not. =.= wth... zZzZzz then passed by a coffee shop so we just sirt there and have our breakfast. well, mom is the only one who's earting. i no appetite. =/ then ar, that taoke damn mengada lor.. customer ask thing u just answer lar, well, we did answer? but it's like, scolding people =.= ELLO, DONT U KNOW THAT CUSTOMER FIRST?! if is not because at the moment his shop is the only shop that open, believe me, i will jitao stand up chao liao. i dont care if the drinks is already serve or what, i will just stand, and go. =.="

after breakfast, well, still VERY early. so i decided to go vivo City lol. again, i search for the bus line and i couldnt get it. so we walk back to the mrt station and go Harbour Front by mrt. =.= laosy me =/ cause the time is still early.. like.. 8+ a.m. only, so the shop haven open yet. THANK GOd that Mcdonald is open. =.= so i bought a set of Fillet-o-fish lor... but the thing is, after i finished the hash brown. im already, very full. =.= opened up my lappy, i thought McD should have free wiFi but unfortunately, NO =.=" and i need a Sg account to connect to the internet. zZzzzZz... so, hahahhaaa... i use my webcam to s.s there lol. with my mom xP looking at the burger, well i knonw mom is not gonna eat it. so, no matter how i must finish it. =/ i never take so long time to finish a burger before lol =.=" luckily i brought my Harry Potter to read, else i sure bored sei lol. but after awhile. i fall asleep. YES I FALL ASLEEP IN MCDONALD!!! so embarrassing!!!! T_T but i feel very refresh after i woke up.. like... 90 mins later? =.=" then i start to contact the agent for room after i woke up. by the time i woke up is already like... 9 or 10+ so some of the shops open le lor... i went to collect the brochur from the three main telecommunication in sg, which is, singtel, m1 and starhub. again, i asked for the info, they just give me the brochur without any explaination. zZzzZzz.. then i went to open an account in OCBC Bank, guess what? they told me that, i can open an account if i still haven get my student pass... zZzZZz =.=" no choice, i will have to open account next week le. =/ since i can only collect my enrolment package on 2pm so me and my mom, we went for shopping lol. ehehheeee... i sapu another shoes, muahahhahaaa...=P then only go to Clementi lol.

well, my main purpose coming to SG today is just to collect the enrolment package. the enrolment package.... so thick =.= and, SO CONFUSING!!! so many forms to fill up =.= k forget bout it. the next thing after collecting the enrolment package is, to meet up with agent and landlord. from clementi, i need to go yio chu kang. again, by mrt. i dunno how to go directly by bus ma!!! D: sien... the room is in Serangoon north Ave. and guess why the landlord wanna rent? because his mother just passed away =.= *thinking* m i sleeping in his mom's room??? =.= well, the moment i stepped in the house, ............. it feels so.... creepy... sorry to say lar. not my type though. even my mom also dont allowed me to stay there because the environment is kinda.. err.. dirty? and that man is staying ALONE. so yea... my mom doesnt want it. (luckiy~ fiuhh~~`) den go see another room le then we need to go changi airport d lol. by mrt again.... =S well, we're late a little but luckily still can check in hahahhaaa... LoL~

this morning is like, so free nothing to do; evening became so packed with things, rushing here and there. and because need to walk alot, mom said, "im sure u can slim down alot. cause u need to walk alot." ello mom? im not THAT fat ok? (-.-") but is really tired though. i never fall asleep in plane throughout the whole journey de. this is the very first time, i sleep from the moment im on my seat, ALL THE WAY until im back in KLIA. zZzzZzZzz.. i missed the night view d. =(

guess i will have to go Singapore by this Saturday le. sighhh.. no more working no more earning money. =/

payment+enrol by monday, tuesday orientation, then need to open a bank account, do medical checkup,apply for tuition grant this and that... ARGGG!!!!!!! so many things to do and so little time left... =/

happy 29th anniversary =)

2010-04-03T23:54:00.001+08:00

having PinkPassion(a mixed fruit juice. passionfruit mix with dunno what le =S) from JuiceWork x3, thinking of, whether my parents are enjoying the meal. yea, today, is my parents 29th anniversary. so, i came out with an idea: i wanna plan a celebration for them! like, candle light dinner, cocktail, flowers, music and all.. so i told sis bout my plan last night, and she agreed with my idea too! so, we quickly went to make reservation for the table at TonyRoma's at Sunway Pyramid. this plan will not work out if im the only one who's doing it. no matter how, i dont have experience in it. -.- so yea, Ms.PeiGi has A LOT experience through her five-celebrations-per-year with her bf. (valentine's,christmas eve,new year eve, anniversary and each other's birthday, VERY experience in fact.. =S) after bringing my parents into the restaurant, me and my sis quickly rush down to buy flowers and bring it back to TonyRoma's and asked the waiter to pass to my mom. teeheeee~ (i was thinking of find one violinist to play a song for them too, but then sis said im so, not realistic lol. she said, mom will enjoyed it but dad is gonna fall asleep lol. even daisou also said the same thing .__.) i've got nothing to do while waiting for them to finish their dinner lol. was planned to go for skating but just nice the 5th nasional figure skating competition is holding in SunwayPyramid's ice ring so ended up, i gt nothing to do, go round and round and round in the building lol. -.-

Well, the feedback from my parents was, AWESOME!!! ehehehe, my mom said, "i've never had any candle light dinner with ur dad ever since we married till now. the 1st time in 29 years." LOL!!! while my dad replied,"you 29 years only, i've neever eat such a nice steak in my whole life." (my dad is a chinese food lover so yea.. =S) according to them, the cocktail makes them abit dizzy (cause it consists alchohol so i drive them back lol), the steak is VERY nice, the dessert is awesome too.!!! heeee.... glad that they love it!!!

so, plan,
SUCCESS!!!!! x)

share....

2010-04-02T12:48:00.002+08:00

Success is to be measured not to much by the position one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome.
-Booker Taliaferro Washington-

saw this from Yk ahgong's Facebook status.
i find it meaningful tho.
and someone came into my mind
who i think,
this suit her most.
LoL~

dedicate to you
my dearest lovely sis. =)

Reminiscence

2010-04-02T02:37:00.006+08:00

my reminiscence,
i shall put on an end for it.

020410,
~secondo passo~
the new beginning of my life.....
the after story........

and if life should come to one question,
do I hold each moment true...
no trace of sadness,
always with gladness...

.:: Bless ::.

2010-04-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

shaN says :

i must be bless,
to love and care by so many people.

worrying for my accomodation?
here comes....
dad asked his friends to help,
even my 5th uncle also asked his relatives-in-law to help.
i search online,
JY help me to find,
Caii help me to find,
PeiShi as well...
(guess she too free nothing to do. no lar... =X)

here i wanna say, a-ri-ga-to!!! x3

besides,
my mom is so smart. -,-
knowing that i will not eat my breakfast.
she cut fruit for me to eat,
everytime see me woke up.
so i from no eating
became eat something. -.-"

next,
my sis....
dont lar so sad...
i know after i left,
nobody will be there to kacao besides your ears anymore,
i know u will surely miss me de.... *ngek ngek*
but dont cry lar ok.
seeing you cry i will cry also de lea.... =/
(she says she dont want to send me to Singapore. ask me to go myself -.-)
in other way you should feel happy eh,
cause you'll have your peaceful day back,...
kakakkakaaa... =P

then then,
is my 'family'...
Ahgong and dadee, peishi too..
heeeek.... thanks ar...
for planning so many things for me.
really have fun with you guys... =)

that's all for now ba...
this is how i feel in these few days...
im really a blessed girl. =)

hair product, down!

2010-04-01T22:54:00.003+08:00

i think, for everyone in this world, sure have something that they like about themselves, physically i mean. some might like their eyes, or maybe nose? or legs?? etc. while for me, the most important are, my face and my hair. my face, i think most of the people know, if anyone touch my face i will surely glare at them de. and my face will turn smelly. LoL!!! i dont like people simply touch me especially my face!!! (pimples then u know ar!!! D:) as for my hair, my mom know it the most. =.= why? "your hair is not damaged, why do you need to invest so much on your hair?" see? this is the prove.__. i admit lar... i really invest alot on my hair. =.= im going Singapore d right? worry that i cant buy all the things for my hair, i went to buy today. LoL~ im not invest on going saloon to do treatment but on the product. Schwarzkopf hair shampoo, conditioner, spray conditioner,treatment cream and also repair essence. all these are ready to bring to Singapore le! kakakakaaa.. else i will cry sei if i couldnt get these things with me. trust me, i will just stay at home, i wont step out from my room, not even one step lol. all these cost me bout 300++ ba.. nvm lar, now buy le next time dont need to buy again ma. lol. by the time i finished using im back in Malaysia again. then only go buy again. kakakaaa.. heard something like this, "people put cosmetics on their face. u lea? put 'cosmetics' on your hair." -__- yea, my all these are called as, "cosmetics for my hair" LoL! but what to do, my hair is just so important for me. i dont use cosmetics on my face but on my hair. bluekss~ =P but frankly speaking, it's not a waste. i,myself see the result. my hair used to be very dry and.... i dont want to say. but now, it became better le.. not so dry and can say it's smooth. =DD so i never regret on investing on my hair lor... saloon product guo ran yi-ji-bang!!! (.... -,- used to suddenly speak mandarin with hanyupinyin in msn with caii now cant change back. -,-) as in, ermm, saloon product really best lor!!! =D but only Schwarzkopf lar, the rest i dont know. never try before =S only when u use the product yourself, and test it yourself you'll see the difference. so alot of people (not only my mom) dont understand why i invest so much on my hair i just smile nia. just like any other people as well, they invest on different type of things. some might invest on clothing, some cosmetics, some heels... for me is my hair. so i dont see anything wrong lor? aiya, afterall, this is woman... the "happiness" of spending money. (eh, now even man also lar... my dad can go shopping with his friends, then come back with things that he bought and tell us, "wah.. syok.!!!" -,-)

so, my hair product, downED!!!
next will be my facial product d. =P

P/s
yay! sister's b'day present done (im sure you will like it after u use de. trust me lol.)! now left, mother's day, father's day, mom's and dad's b'day present. guess i can only give sister money then she settle all le =( i wanted to come back celebrate with them de. every May is our "big month", papa mama and my birthday, we celebrate together every year de. then sister jitao shoot me, "the time u decided to go overseas study you should have expected this will happen de. you better stay there dont come back. celebrate your birthday alone lar harh... ^_^ " zZzZzZzz..

SHOUT it out, LOUD!!!

2010-04-01T18:26:00.003+08:00

how i wish,
that i can
shout it out,
LOUD!
life, society, situation...
doesnt allow me to do so.
there're so many things,
that i cant speak out...
either good or bad,
sometimes,
we just need to be quiet.......

pretending,
to be someone else...
life miserable.

im hiding it, deep within.....

im not dreaming afterall o_O

2010-03-31T23:53:00.003+08:00

guess i'll be kinda busy for the next few weeks ba?
gotta start looking for accomodation le.
JY is helping me as well.
but all that he find is Punggol de.
why?
"stay nearer better. i can tease you always!!! =D "
=.=" knew it.
but still, thanks lar JY! owe you this one! =)
and need to go Singapore to collect my enrolment package,
then need to sign tuition grant..
this and that...
lotsa things sia... @.@

till now i still couldnt believe that i got into my school of first choice.
still couldnt believe that i'll be going to Singapore study in few weeks time.

*pinch my face*
OUUCHHH!!!!
im not dreaming!!! =D

I GOT IT!!!

2010-03-30T22:40:00.001+08:00

30th March,
YES IT'S TODAY!!!
i say not nervous, is fake de....
hmmm, or should i say,
i wasnt nervous at all before today?
i thought of sleeping until 1pm,
only wake up then take shower and everything,
by the time i ready it'll be 2pm,
and the posting will be released.
who knows......
i woke up at 10am. =.=
waiting for the time to pass is a torture.
it's killing me!!!
LUCKILY,
ahcaii keep chatting with me.
with that, the time passed SLIGHTLY faster. LOL~
lenglui daisou also,
she told me that,
"eh ur kor asked why u wake up so early yesterday u sleep so late. then i say u nervous then he said, yesterday somemore said sure can get. i know she kekek one.."
walao kor i wasnt kekek ok!!! just that... i dont wanna say till so big later bo get ma~ =S
then daisou said,
"later let me know the results ok? i'll be waiting."
LoL~ lotsa people care for my posting too sia.
papa, mama, korkor, jiejie, daisou, JunHong lar, Ahcaii lar, William aka Liam dadee lar, Peishi lar, and alot more i can say.
and, i dont know where they get the confidence from,
"aiya, no problem de lar. you sure can get de. dont worry."
........ speechless sia...

2PM,
FINALLY.... IT'S TIME!!!
the moment i open the JPAE website,
i typed in log in ID,
while password, i forgot..... =.=
so i went to my gmail and copy it.
my hands were both trembling when im doing all these....
nice one.. God must be kidding me....
my 'GOOD' lappy, choose to lag at this time this moment... zZzZzz
so by 2.23pm only i saw my posting. =.=
after i logged in,
the moment i saw this:

JPAE-M Status Check
NRIC : 910522105858
Name : ONG PEI SHAN
Status : Offered!
[3 Yrs] NP - Banking & Financial Services

i jumped up and scremed!
I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT ITTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!
"my eyes start to tear when i saw my result..
it is indeed unbeliveable that i managed to get into my first choice!
can you guys imagine HOW FREAKING HAPPY i am right now? =DD"
(this one credit to caii. =.= he completed my sentence. =.= )
okay well, he got it right.. i happy till i cry sia.
and i thought i see wrongly,
so i send my password to lenglui daisou and ahcaii,
let them help me check.
i,myself,
also check again,
keep rubbing my eyes,
to make sure that i didnt see wrongly.
*rub rub*
Status Offered!
[3 Yrs] NP - Banking & Financial Services
is still there.
alright, i didnt see wrongly.
caii and daisou also send "gratz!" to me.
I DIDNT SEE WRONGLY!!!!!!! HOORAYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
happy till nothing to say sia!!!!! =D
now, time to prepare....
GET READY for STUDY in another 2-3 weeks time!!!!!!!!! ^_^

i must be loved by God.
Blessed by Him.
and loved by lotsa people.
thanks for all your supports!!!

Definition of Wife and Husband

2010-03-29T22:07:00.003+08:00

saw this in msn,

WIFE = Wonderful Item For Entertainment
(Caii: that description sounds wrong can) LOL!

HUSBAND = Handsome Useful Smart But At night Dangerous!

as well as this, saw in Facebook..

女人吻男人是一种幸福，
男人吻女人是一种口福。

.......... speeechless sia =.="

it's gone....

2010-03-29T14:42:00.003+08:00

my phone is not there anymore. sighhh..
it couldnt be found.
FML....

this also to mean that, i dont need to buy camera jor.
my this year's b'day present will be a phone again. =.=
for now phone is more necessary than camera.
maybe i should find a phone with good camera..
to replace my "gone" camera.
this should be no prob. ba?
sad to say, dad said this to me just now,
"u cannot buy any phone anymore."
zZzZzZzz..

goodbye, my w850i.

Solaris Mont Kiara

2010-03-28T23:55:00.003+08:00

today is a tiring day. after back from cemetery. rest for awhile, 3pm like that went to Aeon Bukit Tinggi. meet up with Cal dadee, Yk ahgong and PeiShi. guess what. when i reached there, i was wondering why Cal insists that i must come today.

*recalling back at the beginning of March*
Cal : i dont care u 28th March must reserve for me. if your friends ask you out you said other days.
Me : ...............

so yea, i asked. but she didnt answer me. just ask me this, "let's go to Genting now." "oh, ok......... (I was reading my message at the moment she asked.) harh?!?!?!?! now?!?!?!?!" all of them started to laugh at my reaction. =.=" but because i wear sleeveless shirt so i said i need to go back tk jacket and asked why they didnt tell me earlier and Peishi said it is suppose to be a surprise for me. LOL~ i did tell them that i wanted to go Genting several times d. simply because, im in Klang for almost.... 4 months d! didnt go anywhere out of Klang so even is just Genting i will be happy LOL! thanks for still remembering it =)

well, we didnt go. cause while on the way, the weather seems like going to rain soon. so we postponed it to next week (Maybe?) as it is dangerous to drive to Genting when it's raining. ended up we went to Solaris. and had our dinner in Coffee Bean, few hours spent there. it's raining heavily later on, so we decided to go back home as Cal needs to work tomorrow and by the time she sent me home and reached back her home takes around 2hours+ i suppose? so if we go home late she'll be home very late too.

here comes the "joke" of the day. when i reached back home, and, the moment i start looking for my phone, i couldnt find it anymore. =.= this only mean one thing. so i quickly find out my phone list. (luckily i gt keep some of my friend's numbers on a piece of paper as i cant remember people's number de =.=) i called Winnie to look for Linda's number then called Linda's look for Yk's number but she didnt pick up so i called Linda again to look for Peishi's or Cal's number then she gave me Cal's then i called Cal but she didnt pick up so i called Linda AGAIN to look for PeiShi's number. and FINALLY Peishi pick up the call. =.= my phone isnt inside the car as well. this would bring to one conclusion.... i left it in Coffee Bean. it is believed that my phone accidently dropped in/on the sofa, not on the table because all of us did check up our table before we leave and there's nothing on the table. they said they'll help me to look for it tomorrow.

i really hope to find it back. though everytime i keep saying that i wanna change phone but in fact i didnt want to. i think my phone is good enough even though it is thick. afterall, it means alot to me. it's my birthday present.....

hope that,
*next Sunday's plan ON!
*Cal and PeiShi found my phone!

清明时节

2010-03-28T23:16:00.001+08:00

gosh, woke up at 5 in the morning. =,= this year is so f-ing early =.= as usual, went to my grand-grandparents' grave in Shah Alam 1st. this year more people came than last year. not only dad's cousins, as well as their children. but well, i dony know most of them sia =S considered quite-far-relatives. there's even one, who is same age as me, is said to be same tuition with me. i asked, "which tuitioin?" "delta." but unfortunately, i cant remember at all. =.= in fact i never really pay attention to this =.= i go tuition is, go into class-sit-take out stationery and book-pay attention to teacher-go back home. unless is those that either i know or same school with me, sometimes i'll talk to them =S oh yea, we also did some painting, as in brush all the words into gold. the grave now look nicer. =) (also, we took picture "with" our grand-grandparents LOL!)

then, we continue to our grandparents grave in Fairy Park. it's very very very very jam wei~ when we was still in the cemetery in Shah Alam, one of my uncles called and said it's very jam on the way to Fairy Park. well, so, we used another way in Setia Alam, then go to Fairy Park. so, compared to those uncles that stucked in the jam for hours, we reached faster than them kakakaaa.. x) as usual, in front of my grandparents' grave, put on all the food, then pray then eat there. then play fire crackers. =.= also, we took picture "with" our grandparents as well. LOL!!! oh yea, there's a new neighbour behind my grandparents' grave! (i didnt know because i didnt come during CNY this year.) it's just ONLY ONE grave but they bought TEN lands =S (it's said that the "owner" of the grave is related to Magnum (4digits)'s boss) it's very big. very very very big, and, well... the surrounding.. err... very nice =S they have 2 tables there. so we opened up a BIG umbrella, and sit there LOL!!! not we, is my cousins LOL! but ofcourse, we'll go baibai and say,"pinjam duduk kejap ar~" LOLz. OH YA!!! I SAW A HUGE CATERPILLAR!!! FAT AND JUICY!!! snap the picture too!!! but oh well... I'VE LOST MY PHONE AT NIGHT SO THE PICTURES THAT I TOOK ARE ALL GONE! i thought of taking all the pictures then upload for my bro to see de. i think he would like to know how's things going on and etc. but unfortunately, i've lost my phone so.... *sigh*

went back at.... forgot what time. but one thing i can sure is, IT IS STILL VERY VERY JAM!!! in fact we're caught in the jam for almost an hour, JUST FROM THE PARKING UNTIL THE ENTRANCE!!! the cars hardly move =.=" well, later than dad took the way we came earlier as, though that way is longer and farther but AT LEAST no jam. so can still reach home earlier. by the time we reached home is already 1pm++ first time ever reached home so late LOL!!!

P/s i got sunburn again! and, my right mother toe that already injured last time due to sports, now is still in the process of recovery, gt accidently stepped by my dad, SEVERAL TIMES.. now it bacame worse d. thanks ar dad! =.="

清明時節雨紛紛,

路上行人欲斷魂.

(nah i dont see this nowadays =S)

byebye dm3-1028tx :'(

2010-03-26T22:57:00.006+08:00

as usual, Friday dinner. today makan steamboat!!! SLRPP~ newly discovered one new shop, located in Bayu Tinggi, named HO HO Steamboat Restaurant. it was NICE!!! also got the what... "shua shua rou" my mom call it -.-" moreover, got the QQ Taufu!!! lenglui daisou come back must bring her go makan le... definitely she will love it de!!! BUT, only if the shop still there next year lar... =.=" *touch-wood* hopefully the shop is still there =S

i remember when coming to the end when eating the egg. (egg usually we put at last so that the soup's taste will still remain there.) mom asked,"eh, tht 'neng qing' why nobody eat?" i asked, "what is 'neng qing'?" then dad replied, "egg white in hokkien lar.." then sis was laughing there,"hahahahaa.. neng qing... two thousand.." .___. since mom was the one who asked why nobody eat.. so me and my sis replied, "you eat lar.." dad also said, " you eat lar... dan bai dan bai(egg white) make you look fairer." sis said, "make your 'o ban' (hei ban.. dunno what is the translation in english -_-") dissappear." LoL~ hahahhaaaa... really meh? eat egg white will become fairer i also want try liao lor... since im always the darkest among my siblings.. no, should be, darkest among my family =.= (or my dad is the only one who is darker than me ar? i dunno lar -,-) after that, dad suddenly asked me, "u want 'neng qing' bo?" "neng qing ar? i want i want!!!" (i thought he mean the 'neng qing' as in 2k real cash and he's going to tell me something.) who knows.... he took the egg white for me right after i said i want...... -___-"

but, if i have 2k out of sudden, i will straight buy PSP and also change my mobile. OR, maybe i add another 2k change my lappy... =X *imagine-ing* but impossible lar... LoL~

oh yea, went to check up my lappy le.. plan to upgrade it. also, change to windows 7 ultimate ba... in total is like.. RM 500++. i was thinking, if i didnt upgrade, my lappy is totally incompatible with the one i wanna buy. (Hp Pavillion dm3-1028tx) if after i upgrade my RAM, will definitely faster. while for the processor, as that Hp Pavillion is newer so definitely its processor is better than mine. but AT LEAST if i upgrade le will be compatible with the one i wanna buy ba? so, i asked myself, RM500++ and RM 4000+-, which one u wanna spend? so obviously, is RM 500++ =S and yea, got an agreement with dad, that he pay for me 50% of it... so yea... ehehehhee.... at first was planning to upgrade RAM as well as hard-disc de.. but that jiejie (the staff in the comp. shop that i always visit. first was my bro then now is me. i go until she know me le -__-") told me is better if i get external hard-disc ba.. else my ori hard-disc in my lappy will be wasted. so yea... now external hard-disc 400GB just bout RM 200++ only. was planning to ask dad pay for my RAM while i pay the external Hard-disc by myself de.. but i feel guilty lol.. (良心过意不去.. =S) so, i decided to not buy the external hard-disc, and upgrade my RAM 1st. so yea, ended up i pay 50% myself and "sacrifice" the external hard-disc. but still... im happy with it... ^_^ with this im pretty sure that, i will never have the feeling to... "torture my lappy" anymore.. LoL~

so yea.... GOODBYE Hp Pavillion dm3-1028tx... you'll be my "past-dream" from now onwards.. i will never own you now. =S

I will prove it to you. =)

2010-03-26T13:04:00.004+08:00

went to Vivo inside Aeon Bukit Tinggi yamcha with mom just now. What we'll do? ofcourse chat lor.

i remembered one of the things that she mentioned.
"Your dad said, even if we've to pawn things, we'll send you to oversea study."
.............................
whatever i say now is useless. i will prove to you that your effort will not be in vain. =)

Let time prove it all.
When i say i will,
I WILL.

l-i-f-e-l-e-s-s

2010-03-25T20:11:00.002+08:00

lol.. this lifeless life should be over soon ba???
ever since i finished my pre-U on Nov`09, it's been 4 months,
what i do everyday?
look,
wake up-take shower-eat-watch anime-teaching (for 2-3 hours)-eat-take shower- watch anime-sleep
one word describe it all,
L-I-F-E-L-E-S-S

sometimes i feel like, i can die already, no aim in life = no life at all -.-"

Thank God it's gonna finish soon! Bless me!!! =D

5 days... counting down..!!!

2010-03-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

5 more days to go....

F

I

V

E

DAYS..

FIVE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cant wait for it to come... the posting results... should be no problem right? right?? right??? kinda confident actually.. yet.. still... ARGH!!!!!! =S

雨后

2010-03-24T13:39:00.008+08:00

尘封已久的记忆,
渐渐浮现......

忘不了, 就只会在原地踏步
这会否是另一场恶作剧

我學得會
口是心非不要流淚
但留過淚水才能學會
我已經懂得輕輕的放手

彩虹總出現在
天晴雨過

曙光

2010-03-23T02:20:00.003+08:00

雨后天总会放晴,
原本平静的湖面,
掀起了阵阵涟漪...
希望的曙光浮现,
那曙光会是持久,
还是只是昙花一现???

dont mix with bad people ploX!!! =X

2010-03-20T20:20:00.000+08:00

i remember i asked Peishi this question before...

Me : you saw my friend request, right?
PeiShi : yea.
Me : what do you think?
PeiShi : huhh?
Me : lol.. do you think i will accept?
PeiShi : i think... you will gua
Me : why do u think i will?
PeiShi : cause if you dont accept, people will think that you're not over it even though u have already. [i forgot what else she said lol =S]
Me : nah.. you're wrong this time. i wont. LoL~ we should always think before we take any action. now regret? too late le ba? not like i want a friend like this exist in my friend list. lol. you can say im childish or anything but, with this friend in my friendlist, i just feel... yuck~ =S i can say this person really irritate me alot sia -__-"

oh ya, this reminds me of, though i didnt click accept, but i didnt click ignore also! *quickly go click ignore* ok done. now continue. it's my friend list my profile, i can choose to do whatever i want with it. who cares what will other think of me? (ok i do care but not for this. LoL~) every papa mama also will say, in fact DEFINITELY will teach their children since young, "open your eye big big, dont mix with bad people, later u'll get influence." im a good girl, always listen to my parents geh..(=X) so.. i dont mix with bad people. *innocent look*

LOL~

Waiting..... 30th is the day...

2010-03-15T23:05:00.002+08:00

online application *done*
application printout *done*
photocopy of results *done*
photocopy of passport/IC *done*

everything is done... what's left???
just waiting for the release of posting results...
hope that i'll success..
hope that i can enrol myself in Ngee Ann Polytechinic,
instead of Singapore Polytechnic -_-"
30th March is the day...
cant wait for the day to come..
God bless me.. =)

oh.. =S

2010-03-15T21:44:00.003+08:00

nobody gonna love you if u dont love yourself.
learn to love yourself more..
appreciate yourself,
the most important thing in yourself,
appreciate it, treasure it...
if dont treasure yourself,
your "self-value" is gonna drop to hell.

if even,
YOU, YOURSELF, dont treasure yourself,
you expect people to treasure you? =/
from what i've observed,
that's the way it is...
for most of the youngster today...
what a pity..... =/

thanks to my family,
i've been brought up well..

fiuhhhh~ *relieved*